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The episode of Boston Legal that just aired has me feeling both uneasy and more than a little frightened. Far more than my fear of clowns or midgets. I have a profound fear of losing my mind. As in losing my faculties, not just my sanity. Of no longer knowing what is going on around me. Dementia and alzheimers are the worst fate I could possibly think of. The possibility of my being afflicted thus is the most terrifying and horrifying thing that I can think of. I am proud of how my mind works (or doesn't), of my quirks and insanities. The thought of losing not only that but of recognition of everything to the point my organs shut down. I shudder at the thought. And I feel quite afeared as my overactive imagination more than runs away with what my so called life would be in that situation. Would I have someone there to do what is needed? To put and end to both my and my family's suffering?
WriMo
Okay so National Novel Writing Month, or NaNo WriMo... WriMo for short... Starts next month and I am excited. Can't wait to get Immortal Night out there for everyone to critique! It will be interesting to see what regular - non friends people think of the story rather than what my friends have said. Its not that I don't value what they've said.... But honestly, how constructive is "yeah great story Mandy"? I am half prepared for it to go down in flames, but that is to be expected from this kind of thing. Look out Book Two eh? We'll see just how well this goes and how my writing develops over the course of the trilogy....
Okay my excited rant
New Submissions
The new submissions were the beginnings of a book I was writing in uni. It never went beyond what is now posted, the secions called "Katylinn" being the last things written. There are some really cool lines, some funky characters and some pretty graphic scenes. I hope you enjoy... Ohh and as it suggests, they are not really in order... Sorry about that
Urban Dictionary
1) Your name? Amanda
a woman who doesn't take shit from anyone, even her own parents. She does things her way when she wants where she wants how she wants with who she wants
i love lucy's attitude. it's an amanda attitude.
a psyco child who has many personalities and is rather boy obsessed.
(verb) To become a dictatorship and force volunteers to resign from their positions for no apparent reason (or for actually doing good). To take away special privileges, often with an undercurrent of favouritism.
Man, I just got Amandaed for voicing my opinion. And I didn't even do anything wrong!
You'd better not complain, or you'll get Amandaed.
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It's so difficult feeling this way. I never know whether it's mine own emotions that I am feeling or someone else's. I know it happens so often.... The whole "leave me alone, I'm lonely thing".. But really, what can I do? The amount I go through.... For my friends... For my family.. Keeping what I can't show them secret, helping them out with their own issues. And then there's the whole work situation. It's just worn me down to the point that I want to crawl into a ball and cry... And Rae is the only one that could ever see it. She insists that I tell her when I need help? But what can I do.. People come to me for a reason, and I must be the
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Dude I can't think of much worse than dementia and alzheimers. I mean I read horror where little kids are maimed and killed and still I shudder at the thought. You're definetly not alone on that one.